If you want to know something about yourself sit on your bed one night and say to yourself you've got to mean this You've got to be desperate This is no game this My life is not everything I want it to be and perhaps it's not everything that I need it to be And by need I mean my life is so unbearable that the suffering that's attended upon that has made me nihilistic cynical bitter resentful driving the proclivity to see evil everywhere except within my own heart Like these are problems man And you ask yourself you sit on the bed and say okay man I'm ready to learn something What's one thing I'm doing wrong that I know I'm doing wrong that I could fix that I would fix It's like you meditate on that you'll get an answer And it won't be one you want but it'll be the necessary one