Doechii, Gotye - 'Warm, Weird Feeling' (Somebody That I Used To Know X Anxiety) | Mashup |

💭 WARM, WEIRD FEELING — TRACK I — OUT NOW 💭 This track speaks about how fear and anxiety can become warm feelings. How does it work? Easy! You've felt so much anxiety and fear for so many years throughout your existence and now they've become internalized feelings which are considered unconsciously normal. Think about it this way, you're raised on love, joy and good values that when life gives you the opposite thing you can't handle it, right? Same thing happens with people whose life has been characterized by fear and axiety, when you feel those type of emotions you feel like your in the right place, however when you feel most likely happy it's just weird, it does not quite resonate with you. Just recently I've figured out that my brain might have become addicted to chaos and suffering in relationship. I hate this situation because I did NOT decide this, if only I had power about this. What happened is that when my brain first encountered love, not just romantically, it felt like I had to fight for it, I had to fight to be loved and to be recognized, and with time, by this love being the one I was given, my brain still identifies "the right formula" in that, but at the end of the day, toxicity in love is what always ends up killing me, however it is also what makes it more engaging to me. I've had good relationships, I've dated good people but it BORED me, it was not memorable, I did not feel the same passion I feel for the toxic love, and I indeed shut down the relationships even before they had started. I do not regret it, however I want to become normal.