95 ~ SILENT SKIES - 4K TEST 5.1 SURROUND SOUND

Just trying a 4K test and a 6 channel audio test. Tell me how they work and if the quality is good. I thought I would test a video that im still working on just because I haven't really been editing lately and I still want to test formats. So here is an incomplete video. Kinda feel like with so many unfinished projects just reminds me how I started all this. I literally am the YouTube equivalent of someone who comes uninvited to a party and silently drinks all the alcohol. Like thats literally how I started. I just jumped in uninvited. Funny how that works. Like seriously though, why the fuck am I even doing this still? I feel like my videos are generic. I dont feel like I have the creative skills to portray what I come up with or what I think about. This hobby feels more like a chore and less satisfying than it use to. I just feel like im about to go fucking nuts lately. Not because of the hobby though, but it's affecting me. I just cant seem to summon the will to edit anymore, or even try something new. I feel so numb to everything. There's so much on my mind and it's driving me crazy. Every time I go to edit it brings back all these tense emotions, it's just stressful. I have all these recurring nightmares and dreams about someone, Makes me wake up unhappy and makes my days harder. I cant find a job, cant go anywhere, don't have anyone to look up too. Im stressed. So for having a few unfinished projects and up to 8 being planned, idk if I want to do all that. Every time I go to edit anyways it feels like im learning all over again. I feel new to it all the time. I dont have this down like I thought I would. Im just a mess. Time has not been fixing the issues I thought it would. It's all coming back to me. Makes me so unsure. I don't know what to say, I dont know if I need time away from this hobby or if I just need to let life take it's unpleasant course and I may come back to have the inspiration I need or just keep doing it, force myself to keep trying. Im not sure. Im not sure about things currently, im tense and it's driving me fucking nuts. :(