Everything You're Not [[a jonas sister abuse story]] ep. 5

ok so i hit about 30 subs the other day and i know that doesn't seem like a lot but wow i'm shocked haha. i didn't think ppl wld rlly like my story that much. i just wanted to say thank you again i'm rlly grateful for all the comments and ratings and subs and friend requests you guys r amazing(= ------------------------ After breakfast, I'd managed to get up to my room without attracting anyone's attention. I closed the door behind me and grabbed my guitar from its corner in my room. I had loved writing music for as long as I can remember. It was like my great escape. When I strummed my guitar, nothing else mattered. I could tune out the rest of the world and become lost in the music. I was currently in the middle of writing a song. I'd started it a few days ago, but never found the time to continue it. With all the things my brothers made me do, I really had no free time. Usually I was either too tired or too sore to even pick up my guitar. I only had a few lines so far, so I did what I always did when I got stuck. I closed my eyes and strummed my guitar absentmindedly. Suddenly I was struck with inspiration and immediately grabbed my marbled notebook and a pencil. "Before I fall too fast kiss me quick, but make it last So I can see how badly this will hurt me When you say goodbye keep it sweet, keep it slow let the future pass and don't let go but tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight" I couldn't stop. My hand just kept gliding along the page, writing down everything I felt inside that moment. A few minutes later, it was finally complete. I sang through it once making a few tweaks here and there. After I'd gone over it again, I sang it through once more with the guitar this time. I'd named the final piece: Catch Me "Before I fall, too fast Kiss me quick But make it last So I can see how badly this will hurt me When you say goodbye Keep it sweet Keep it slow Let the future pass And don't let go But tonight I could fall too soon under this beautiful moonlight But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling your love is where I'm falling But please dont catch me See this heart Won't settle down Like a child running scared from a clown Im terrified of what you'll do my stomach screams just when I look at you Run far away So I can breath Even though your far from suffocating me I can't set my hopes too high Cuz every hello ends with a goodbye But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling Your love is where I'm falling But please dont catch me So now you see Why I'm scared I can't open up my heart without a care But here I go It's what I feel And for the first time in my life I know it's real But you're so hypnotizing You've got me laughing while I sing You've got me smiling in my sleep And I can see this unraveling your love is where I'm falling So please don't catch me If this is love Please don't break me I'm giving up So just catch me" I looked it over a few more times. When I finally decided that I was satisfied with the song I reached for my phone and called my friend Stella. We'd been best friends ever since Joe, Nick, and I had moved out here to Los Angeles to live with Kevin. "Hey Al," she greeted. "Hey," I replied. "You think you could stomach hearing the first cut of a new song?" "Sure," she chuckled softly. Stella was like my number one fan. Well, she was really my only "fan". Stella was the only person I had the courage to share my music with. I played the song for her, my stomach in knots once I got towards the end. It was quiet when I finished. What was really seconds felt like years as I waited for her comments. "Allison Marie Jonas..." she trailed off. "That was the most amazing song I have ever heard!" she announced proudly. A smile spread across my face. "Really?" I asked in disbelief. "Um yes!" she laughed reassuringly. "Thanks Stella," I said graciously. "So, who's it about?" she asked, suddenly curious. "No one..." I said, my cheeks turning a light shade of pink. "Oh and who is this Mr. No One?" she interrogated. "You don't know him..." I trailed off, not wanting to reveal him in fear of someone overhearing. "Ok," she replied, catching on now. We talked for a little while longer, and then Stella had to go. I hung up the phone and looked over my song one more time. I sighed as Mike's face immediately came to mind. Yes, the song was about Mike. I couldn't explain it, but he'd been my best friend since our toddler days. He meant the world to me. ------------------------------ ok idk if this is one of my best so be honest and tell me what you think of it luvit.likeit.hateit. comment/favorite/rate 15comments?? maybe more?= next update =]