TW: Integration Update - Katy Is Dissolving Into the Hidden Subsystem
Potentially triggering topics mentioned include: our hoodie, poverty/houselessness (implied), being sick, trigger dates (ra/mc), integration amongst polyfragmented dissociative identities, sleep issues, emotional and financial health, being no contact with our partner's family, being blessed by the Universe materially (incl. with weed and a Taoist book, synchronicity/l.o.a. stuff implied), an alter with a name associated with Satanic abuse The background sound of the wind is also really loud, so we want to give a warning about that. We also want to note that we recorded this yesterday, so our birthday is actually tomorrow, not two days from now. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A video from a year and a half ago that provides some integral context (no pun intended): TW (Read Description First): Core Integration, Hidden Subsystem Comes Forward: • TW (Read Description First): Core Integrat... *it turns out the video alters specifically wanted us to link was the one right after it, TW: Hidden Subsystem Introduction (Monarch/Polyfragmented DID): • TW: Hidden Subsystem Introduction (Monarch... Hopefully both put together will provide the context we want to provide for this video. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A note about the videos linked above (tw - dissociation): We remember almost nothing that we said in them, so we are hoping that everything will make sense when these videos are put together. If they don't and you have questions, you are welcome to ask, but if you come off as aggressive/interrogative/doubting (i.e. like the "inconsistency police" as some alters in our system have humorously dubbed it) and/or as a handler fishing for information about our system, we probably won't answer and we might block you. Even if you seem well-intentioned, we might not feel safe or able to answer, so we hope in that circumstance you'll understand. A note about the first one specifically (tw - boundaries, Mk Ultra stuff): We also want to note that we are aware that we gave a command in the title without it actually pertaining to a personal boundary, which is something we have asked you guys repeatedly not to do when commenting on here for the safety of ourselves and other survivors. We were not, however, asking that of you guys when we titled the video (as far as we, those speaking, can recall) and as much as we have since tried to work with the alters who titled it so that we can change it, they are still too traumatized and we have had to leave it alone until they are ready (trying to change it for them would not work). The reason we gave the command we did was that we found a subliminal image implanted in the beginning of the video, so some people may honestly want to avoid clicking on it altogether. That said, all our videos probably have subliminal stuff implanted in them by abusers, so if our other videos are doing more good for you than harm, then that one hopefully would also. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Update (11/22/19): In order to honor ourselves and our non-binary gender, we are going back to our former front name Dylan - • TW: We Are Going Back to Our Old Front Name
