Cher x Life is Strange: If I Could Turn Back Time / Creep

Another one that was a "needed to do" type of mashup. If you saw my first community post I was looking for songs to work with that involved the theme of an apology. This one was the closest to anything and "creep" felt like a complimentary match. Way below will be an open apology to the bestie I hurt who I expressed in a few mashups my grief over losing and being hurt by, in the off-chance they come across and read the description of this video at all. Songs used: If I Could Turn Back Time - Cher creep - Life is Strange: True Colo(u)rs (Cover by mxmtoon) If you see this bestie, I hope you know that this is me admittedly still desperate in some way, in some form, to apologise for my behaviour that caused the fallout of our friendship. Despite having been in a place of depression that was out of my control because of the inconsideration of home where I am, and the strain of our friendship at the time because of the fact you didn't take the pain you inflicted on me prior seriously enough, I shouldn't have hurt my bestest friend as I ended up doing. Even if what I believe now is to be a horrendous meltdown, that stemmed from, again, the inconsideration of home, that never justified my behaviour a single bit. I had been extremely desperate to apologise for the longest while, admittedly to a point of obsession and madness over the guilt I held for not only taking so long to apologise, but also that I believed I was justified before realising that I really fucked up. I love you bestie... You were really everything to me. And it still hurts wondering how I could've handled things better when I was in a place where the triggers were out of my control, and no one cared to really take them seriously. I'd really stake my reputation online just to let you know I'm sorry, and if you let me, I'd do anything to make amends. And to anyone else who reads this... please should take this as a lesson from my experience mentioned above that for your friendships and relationships to please be understanding as possible when your friends or your partner(s) are going through a rough time. The world isn't changing for the better with all the conflicts and discrimination going on in the world, and even then we all have our battles either internally with our mind or behind closed doors with abusive family members, partners, maybe even friends. If someone tells you something's making them uncomfortable or that they're in a bad situation right now, acknowledge it, and don't do things that would further hurt them. And as mentioned last time, please don't see online connections as inferior because you don't think anything's real on the other side of the screen. And in anyone who could relate in my shoes about feeling like you don't need to apologise for hurting someone who hurt you... yeah, definitely do not fall for that trap that someone hurting you or ruining your life, whether intentional or accidentally, means you should return the favour. It's not good to justify for abusive or cruel behaviours by any means. Admittedly, you'd think it'd be a little childish or extreme to be putting this out on a YouTube video of all things, at least in my opinion. But like I stated on my channel, some of my mashups will have a story to them. This is one about the loss of a dear friend, and some of the context that lead to the fallout that happened between us, and the wish to amend things. Though at the same time, this is also closure for me with this person too if nothing comes of this. I hope through this open apology too anyone going through the motions in their own lives know they're not alone if they are going through anything similar to what I mentioned above.