how do i end this? [sad multifandom]

TW. Life has been really hard. It always has been but I had moments to breathe at least. Not now. Have you ever felt like you didn’t know how to keep going, even for one more second? Like you didn’t know how to live with yourself, like you’re trapped in your own mind and body? Crying without being able to stop for trivial things? Wanting to end it all? Not knowing whether you’re longing for healing or for non existence.