I Lied — I’m Not OK (Official Lyric Video)

PTSD rock ballad about flashbacks, insomnia, panic, anger, trauma, and the “I’m alright” mask. I Lied — I’m Not OK is for anyone fighting it in silence—still standing… but barely. If you’re dealing with PTSD or dark thoughts, you don’t have to carry it alone. If you feel unsafe or think you might hurt yourself, call your local emergency number. In the U.S./Canada dial or text 988. UK & ROI: Samaritans 116 123. Australia: Lifeline 13 11 14. ⏱️ CHAPTERS 00:00 – Verse 1 I say “I’m alright” like it ends the talk, Like a man don’t break if he learns to walk. So I live in my studio till the lights burn out, Red light on, headphones crushing, trying not to shout. Six strings in my hands like a rope I won’t drop, But my mind keeps swinging at the lock on the box. I grab that mic, spit “I’m alright”—God, I hate that lie, Stack another take like it keeps me alive. I keep building “strong” like it pays my debt— But PTSD collects with a loaded threat. 00:39 – Pre-Chorus And it don’t fade… it don’t pray… it don’t sleep, It waits for the quiet, then it digs in deep. 00:53 – Chorus I lied — I’m not OK, I’m still standing but I’m losing ground. If you see me smiling, that’s a cover-up— I’m one bad night from a breaking sound. And I hate that I’m “strong” when I’m bleeding alone, Hate that I choke on it, hate that I won’t go home. I lied — I’m not OK… I’m still standing… but barely. 01:14 – Verse 2 I don’t call nobody—I track it down, Turn pain into waveforms, just loop it around. But the flashbacks hit like a kick in the chest, And sleep don’t come—just the same damn test. So I sit in the dark while the screen stays bright, Watching my life in a timeline all night. I’m mad at my brain, I’m mad at my past, I’m mad that “music” can’t mute it that fast. 01:44 – Pre-Chorus 2 I’m tired of “good,” tired of playing brave— I don’t need a medal, I need a way to be saved. 01:54 – Bridge So here it is — no mask, no spin: I can’t keep winning by dying within. If you’re hearing this and you’re holding that weight, If you’re fighting your head just to make it through days— Say it out loud, don’t carry it buried: still standing… but barely. 02:36 – Final Chorus I lied — I’m not OK, I’m still standing but I’m calling it now. If you see me smiling, don’t buy the act— I’ve been choking on it, I’m spitting it out. And I hate that I’m “strong” when I’m bleeding alone, So I’m saying it first—yeah, I’m done being stone. I lied — I’m not OK… I’m still standing… and I’m reaching for help. 03:16 – Outro (still standing… but barely) #AshesAndDust #ImNotOK #PTSD #StillStanding #LyricVideo #RedemptionRock I say I'm alright, like it ends the talk. This raw performance captures intense emotions, with powerful emotional lyrics delivered in a moody recording studio setting. The dramatic storytelling is enhanced by cinematic lighting, creating a compelling visual and auditory experience. 🎸 Artist: Ashes & Dust 🖤 Style: Outlaw rock / redemption rock / grit