Tribute to my dearest Cat Tibby ♥

awakened by a phone call telling me that there was no real hope to see you get better...despaired for a miracle.i wanted to go there to see you one last time just to tell you goodbye.i remember it was gray outside i was fighting to hold back my tears without much sucess. A hard choice to do..or i let you live and and a pay full price for medication wich will maybe work for a time but at the end would be pointless and your kidneys would have problems again plus you would obvously die...or i choose the Euthanasia...i never foud so hard to sign a paper. but the worst is when i saw you..skinny and weak.i was talking to you the words so difficult to say i choked many times when i said " i love you" " im sorry you know i wouldnt do that if i had the choice im sorry i so wanted to bring you back home with me.." so painful when they gave you the sedative but it KILLED me when they euthanized you. i was stroking your head then you were gone imediatly lifeless.the last time i saw you is when you were lying on the table dead...i closed the door the death in my soul and in tears. When i we were going back home a fine rain start to fall and there was this song on the radio " with or without you" wich meant alot to me cause i was i came back home without you.only with your necklace,your empty cage and a bit of your fur i cut before you leave. Now Doudoune is alone she doesnt realize yet but for days she will search for you in the apartment.your picture joined these of our 2 other cats that have past away on the fridge. The house seem so empty and silent since you`re gone. Good bye my fuzzy,sweet,funny,loving little friend i miss you so much already. hope to see you again in heaven one day if its possible. please god make it possible... i know she may be just a cat but she was my cat my baby i miss her beyond words and its not even been 24hrs yet... song: Tribute (orchestra) by Vivian Khor